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Are you battling the “I don’t want to do this anymore” monster?

Thursday, 28 June 2012 | By Cas McCullough

I don't know about you, but there have been times, of late, when I've lain in bed wondering, "What on earth am I doing all this for?"


I start dreaming of taking off into the sunset with my boys and a tent in tow and wishing I had more freedom to enjoy just being a mum. What's that like?


Then, I start to feel suffocated and trapped. That’s when the "I don't want to do this anymore" monster senses my vulnerability and attacks.


To understand why this happens, I need to rewind a bit.


Usually when the monster attacks, it's after a very late night working on my business. I go to bed by torchlight so I don't wake up my sleeping husband and the house is so quiet, you can hear the cat purring in the next room.


I like the solitude of late nights when I have a lot of work to get done but sometimes my body aches and I wonder what happened to the day. If I get a few days like that in a row, that's when the "I don't want to do this anymore" monster goes on the prowl.


He stirs up my kids by sneaking them jelly beans and red cordial (or so it seems) and he whispers lies into my husband's ear, telling him that when I'm too busy to just sit around watching TV it really means I don't want to spend time with him.


It's so easy to get discouraged when your business is down to you. That's why I'm thankful for the community we have at Support a WAHP, a community that offers friendship, shares resources and wisdom and, importantly, buys from each other.


I know that when the monster comes a calling, it's time to rethink my priorities. It's time to get out of the house and go for a long walk and time to get some help with the things that the "I don't want to do this anymore" monster feeds on.


How about you? Are you feeling fed up and overwhelmed? Has the monster come calling at your house?